I've had it. This is the last straw. *chuckles maniacally*
So, they don't want a nice girl? Fine then. I can live with that. I've always hoped that I would just start dropping this stupid act anyway. Shinzui will be used to talk to my online friends, and to those who exist in my real life - especially my family... They won't be spared.
I don't bloody care if I lose every single "friend" I've made over here. They've gone too far - I want them to die. Heh. *smirks* That should be easy, I have a dagger in my hand and I can quickly kill them with ease. And no, I'm not fucking kidding around. I'm fucking serious and I have that unstoppable desire to kill.
I've gone over the edge. Nothing matters anymore. Soon enough, my house shall be painted with pretty red blood. Hehehehehehe!!!
Bloody Tarturus, I am really leaving ff.net if I see one more bloody mishap in that Beyblade section. Seriously, I saw this. D'ya wanna know what it is? Well, folks - it's a fanfic from an author who doesn't know how to write so he/she copies from somebody else.
Kids these days... *sighs*
Okay, so I admit that I do have my shares of copying stuff, but I'd never go this far. To copy the whole fic, the whole summary - let's just say, everything was copied. All the author needed to do was change the names of the Digimon characters into Beyblade characters.
Bloody hell. I'm not going to fucking complain about this. I'm too damn lazy, I've got other problems to worry about. And yes, I do know that I'm cruel - but hey, it's my life. So, I don't care if people would just start copying everybody around here.
Okee, I'm not going to ramble about that anymore. It's useless anyway. Let's see, there's nothing new today, except for the fact that I have a long weekend ahead of me. I'm going to be working really hard on my fanfics - there's like... twenty-five sets of plot bunnies that I need to feed. x___x
It's all part of being a writer, I guess. But, it's fun. It's sort off my outlet - my writing contains most of my hatred and other stuff. But, most of all, it contains my angst. Angst and nothing but angst. XD
Alrighty. Ever since I saw the episode of Queer as Folk last Monday night, I haven't stopped smiling and squealing like the pathetic fangirl that I am. It's because it was so, so... awesome! However, I just can't believe that it's already over. The need to see the next episode grows even bigger - I can't wait to see the next episode!!
Now, before I ramble about that series even more, I'm going to stop myself. That's not the main reason why I'm here though. And so, without further ado, please welcome my rant for the day.
For the love of god, the twerp from the AAMSA is back again. I thought that she disappeared because she knew that she couldn't defeat the AMSA, but noooooo - she's back. And, to top it all off, she's back with the same old tricks. They're mostly pathetic ones, so I can't help but get a good laugh out it.
However, it seems that she had resurrected the sleeping flame-breather inside of me. But, I managed to stop it in time before I turn my "review" into a full-pledged flame. And all I can say was, "Fuck that." *shrugs* I don't really know why I have to be nice to that kid, but I guess it's because she's just a kid.
So, anyway - there's nothing else to report other than that. Yes, I'm still on that "quest", and I'm getting somewhere. I seemed to have stopped laughing all together, and when I do laugh, it's usually when some dumb asshole did something very stupid in front of me.
And, finally, I do not know how to cry anymore. *nodnod* That was my main goal, and I guess I got it. Heh. Crying is just stupid, don't ya think? Oh well, it's all good because I don't bloody care anymore. I don't give a fucking damn if somebody wanted to kill me right now.
Shinzui Edit: I told you that I'd continue it.
*squeals like a fangirl* AIYYYEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
I'M SO HAPPY!!!
Queer as Folks airs on Canadian TV!! *jumps around and dances like crazy* Yay! I can't believe it!! Oh my god. Oh my god!! *squeals again*
Uh... lookie at that. My childish side took over me again. But who bloody cares!? I get to see QaF on TV instead of DVDs! Yeah!
Ick. It's only been four days, and I already have a new layout. *sighs* Nammed mood swings. I wish they would just stop coming all together!! I don't want to feel anymore!! I don't want any emotions!! >_<
So, today is the official day I'm starting my 'quest' on removing these damned feelings. I don't need 'em. And, I can perfectly survive without 'em. However, I don't think Shinzui will live on... Heh. She needs to live. For the sake of my friends online. *nodnod*
Feh. I'm getting kicked off. I might continue my rant tonight or something. Ick. -.+
And so, yet another humourous day shall unfold before my eyes. I can't wait to see what this day shall bring to me. I need a good laugh right now. And, I also need to make somebody pay.
Ick.
I wonder, what will my friends think of me now? Bah, maybe as long as this damned mask is still on - they won't be exposed to my real self. *nodnod* Wait a second, methinks I said that I was a confused little girl back then...
Well, I guess those days are over. I'm fed up with fucking parents. Hell, I can't even call them parents anymore. Just call 'em by their first names. It's not like they even care that they're losing - no, that they already lost a daughter. *snorts*
Hn. I'm sure they'd be so, so happy with my other siblings. They never wanted me in the first place anyway - I can clearly see that.
*shrugs*
Fuck. These thoughts might affect my writing. Bah, who fucking cares!? I've given up on ever finding that stupid 'light at the end of the tunnel'... It's all bullshit.
*coughs* Now, if you'll excuse me, I need to beat the crap out of somebody.
Screw it!
This fucking life gets better and better. I'm beginning to think that everything in my life revolves around amusement and humour. People these days... Methinks they exist to make me laugh, laugh, and laugh.
I do wonder what will happen to me now? I've changed - in one freakin' day, to top it all off. XD But, it doesn't matter, I guess. It's not like the pathetic mortals around here care.
They're all juvenile, absurd, and hilarious. Most of all - delirious. They think they're all that, when in reality - they're just a bunch of morons.
However, there are a few exceptions to my cynicism. A few. I just wish they'd have a better life than I do. *nodnod*
Fuck. Now, I need to change this layout again. Dammit!! >_<
The strangest thing happened to me today.
You see, it started out as a normal day. My mother was angry, my father was angry and I was just minding my own business, all cooped up inside my room. I was just sitting there until I heard...
Screams. Shouts. Yells. Cries.
It all happened so quickly that I wasn't able to comprehend most of the words that were being said. I do know, however, that it was about me yet again.
So I listened...
My mom and dad fought over and over again. Both seemed determined to win. I thought that it would never end. And then, suddenly...
The house was quiet.
I listened yet again to the ticking of the clock, and then I heard a door being slammed shut. My mom left the house to cool off.
After that, I heard footsteps. My door opened and it revealed my father. He was angry at me. And when he started to give me a lecture, I just listened. Not a single word hurt. Not a single one. He also left the house when he finished.
No sooner than the door being slammed did I start to cry. Uncontrollably. It shocked the hell outta me because I haven't cried since I was ten years old or something.
But when my parents came back, I stopped. I was completely silent and deathly still.
So you see...
The strangest thing happened to me today.
Tee-hee.
New layout again.
I was bored, and I had nothing else better to do. *shrugs* Besides, it was either this or coming up with an Ivan PoV ficlet. ^__^ But, yet again, it's pretty simple. I still have to learn how to manipulate graphics and stuff. x__x Hopefully, next year - I'll be able to create radical layouts.
So, anyway, nothing else is new. My life is boring and dull. I know that. However, that's how I'd like to picture my life... In reality, it's a desolated hell.
On a lighter note, I seem to have cooperative Ian bunnies. The more cooperative ones, the harder the fanfic is. ^^; My mind works that way. Also, I seem to have a few stray Lai bunnies running around. o_O They appeared the minute I saw something that's very... interesting. *smirks*
Well, that's it for now, folks. Later Dayz!
FAKKU!!!
I hate this fucking world. I am so fucking pissed off that I haven't even stopped swearing since last Saturday!! I swear if I ever see my fucking brother's face ever again, I'm gonna KILL him!!
*sighs*
Right, I'm fine now. I just finished screaming in frustration a while back. Stupid life, can't fucking leave me alone...
Ugh. I've got nothing else to say. I need to cool off before I fill my bloggy with fucking profanity. Ack. I did it again. Fuck that. >_<
Well, new picture, I suppose. I can't really call this a layout because it really isn't. ¬_¬ Anyway, I've been neglecting my bloggy again! But, that's only because I have a Kumagoro to tell my secrets to. XD
Anyway, this would be a short entry. I'm writing this right before I need to get to skul. Which is, by the way, now. I'm late! Gah! I might write later on tonight... if I manage to remember. ^^;
Why does stupidity exist?
It's the question of the day, folks! The world is filled with morons who think they're all high-and-mighty. It makes me sick. Bleh. +.- Only a few decent people left, and I do hope they continue to live. That's the only thing that makes life worth living...
Oh wait. We also need to thank the stupid ones. They make me laugh all the time at their pathetic attempts to make me cringe. Heck, MY glare could send those so-called-bullies packing for next town. Just because I'm small, doesn't mean I'm not strong. Hn. Serves them right for messing with me.
So, other than getting a good laugh, life's been sailing smoothly. Sure there are a few waves and all, but it's nothing too serious. Nothing new. The anger would never leave - that's a known fact. So does pain and misery. But, happiness and joy finally climbed aboard. So I guess that's a good thing. oO;
Dum de dum. Time is going by so quickly. In a few weeks, it's spring already! All those cherry blossoms... Oh gosh. -blushes- Hehehe... Let's just say I've got plans with my beloved Matthew. ^.~
Who ever said that Course Planning was easy?!
Gyahow... I was so stressed out from doing that silly thing. From worrying about what courses to take to panicking about not having enough credits to graduate. Then, I find out that I do have enough - actually, I have plenty! >< And to think, I was gonna take all three Sciences... Bio, Chem, and Phys... Bleh. Good thing I just need Chem and Phys. I ish gonna be taking Bio in Summer Skul!
So... Life's been pretty nice to me over the past two days. It's... nice. I actually feel... normal, for once. oO; It's a sad thought, I know - but hey, it's true. I have a crappy life, I can't do anything to prevent that. Well, all except taking the easy way out... which I don't want to. The act is tempting, but methinks I still have some ill-fated will left to stop me. -shrugs-
What else, what else... Gah. I guess that's it. For now.
Meep. New layout. Big surprise.
Well, Ishshi is now currently in Japan. Lucky girl. Wish I could go back there... especially this spring! All those sakuras... -sighs dreamily-
Anyway! Kit-kit is doing just fine right now. He'd survive this. He always does. ^__^ And... All I want for him right now is to stay FAR AWAY from his father. Bleh. >< That old man should be punished! Locked up in jail! After what he did to his own flesh and blood...
Hoo hum. On a lighter note, I'm actually getting an A in Math! Yippie! My parents would be so... so... -sighs- nothing. -shrugs- If I get anything lower than a B this term, I'm gonna be dead. Ah well, that's exactly what I want to happen anyway. Maybe I don't need that glinting thingeh after all...
And yeah, that's about it. Unless, of course, you wanna hear me ramble about my fics. Especially "Unknown"... Bryan's emotions are driving me CRAZY! And, that's really bad... considering the fact that he's my Soulbond! ^^; It's like... I hafta go through tons of barriers in order to get his emotions out in the open. -shakes head-
Well. It's official. Bryan is my favorite Beyblade charrie. I thought it was Rei or Kai. But no, 'tis Bryan. ^__^
Hehehehehe!! Now, if only I could continue my other fics... ><